This school year has been the rear opposite of everything that 2009 had offered me. I was elected Class President during our class elections and I have a number of classmates who I can consider as true friends already, as early as this. I didn’t see this coming, and yes, there are some other things that I didn’t see coming, too.

But what matters after all is, that I have finally gained interest in attending classes again. My classmates who I should be leading, are the ones guiding me now day in and day out. Without these wonderful mates I have at present, I’m certain that I would have quitted again by the 15th of August this year. I’m not pointing out that the batch of classmates that I had last year are bad, it’s just that there’s something special that connects me with my present buddies at school.

I do have some problems with my grades, particularly in Mathematics and Filipino. In which the primer is the more difficult case than the latter one. But being the Student (before being a) Blogger that I am to-date, I hope that I will get over this little hurdle by the pre-finals.

I could go on and on with this topic, thanking each and every classmate of mine, but I’ll just sum it up in a little note that:

Without the whole section S6, I wouldn’t be the student that I am here, at present

No Man Is An Island

And it’s a fact that no man is an Island. But have you asked yourself what to do whenever you’d be left alone by your friends and loved ones? I’m sure. That all the people you trust can be counted upon and that they’ll be with you for as long as possible. But they won’t be around forever. The time will come that you need to walk your own way and make your own choices. We might still know each other and communicate. But when the day comes, that we both meet the common foe, 666; it’s up to you whether to follow or to refuse. No one will decide for you, but you alone.

I was sort of lucky to have felt the feeling of loneliness a while back. It makes you feel sort of helpless and weak. Especially when you realize just about how much you rely on other people, and say, the technology of today. But, will the technology be of any help, when the very technology that man has create will be your foe sooner or later, if ever the 666, mark of the beast is the chip to be implanted in your body?

You have everything, when you have nothing.

If we trace back history, and have a look at the bible. Adam and Eve had nothing but themselves, and God who watched upon them. You’ll have everything you need, when you have nothing. Especially when the day nears when everything you have, becomes the very enemy of yours.

I don’t usually walk home alone. My girlfriend usually accompanies me home. Because to be honest, I’m a person that easily gets scared and freaked about almost every little thing I see or note. Imagine how scared and freaked out I’m feeling during the last couple of days from all the signs and Illuminati stuff I’ve looked up on the net?

This evening was my evening to walk home alone. I just felt so walking alone. The dark path towards our house. It’s quiet distant from the street, and the part of the Village that I live has no proper lightning…

I wondered…

If I’d meet the Evil, what would I do? How would I defend myself? What could I use to fight against him?I really felt like I was observed by someone. So scared. So freaked out like almost never before. Oh, and helpless too.

I realized one thing, one simple but very vital thing. No, I have realized and known about it way before this incident, but this very incident reinforced my believe even further. That, when the end of days is near, the only person that you can turn to is Jesus. Drop all materialistic items that you possess and turn to him. Show him your heart, your good heart. Let him feel that you have faith in him and he will let  you feel his love for you and make you feel secure.

As I started moving step by step towards our house in the darkness I prayed “I have a clean heart, I love Jesus to the fullest, he is my salvation”, and guess what? All my fear was gone.

Nothing will save you. No one will help you but one person only. Always remember to pray to him. Not only in times of sorrow, but whenever you have time to commune with him every now and then. He is there, he will listen, he will save us.

He then repeated his first question, if how the teens were behaving. I actually wasn’t that serious about it, but when we started talking I realized something that I would not have, if we didn’t talk that moment. I told him:

The Villa People are great. They are so down to earth, they come from very simple lives. It is funny that some don’t even know how to use the Microwaves or Olive Oil.

My father interfered: “That’s life. There are people who don’t have what you have, or are not even close to your status in life. It is good to see them in the house, and have fun, a great chance for all of them.”

I almost cried as I continued talking: “There’s one among the girls who was so happy to have slept on a soft bed, or on a proper bed in general. It makes me feel so happy and special.” Not all people enjoy the lives that you (readers) and I have. Yung tipong pa browse browse lang sa net. You should be lucky with what you have, and if you want more, you should work for it to deserve getting more.

Look at the Villa Housemates. If you come to think of it, sleeping on a proper bed, using a microwave, getting good food, being able to relax and not worry about things, some, if not all of the few mentioned above is part of our lives already but we don’t really come to appreciate it.

I love the Villa, and will stay there and update you more about them there. Sila, ang talagang nagpakatotoo.

I hope you get my point

A lot of things have been bothering me, well, hindering me from doing any blogging at all. This includes but is not limited to the people in real life who consume a lot of the time that used to be dedicated for blogging. I’m not blaming them or anything, I’m pointing out that I need to be more disciplined about my schedule. Also, the schedule at which time I go to bed.

Can I still make it into the blogging scene?

I think, I can consider my 350 Dollar Adsense (on a single day) Earning last year as a little stint into the blogo-sphere. I mean, since then, a lot of other bloggers joined us blogging about the fight and providing information (whilst others were just after the money) on how to watch the fight online. From my part of the blogging world, I see the little achievement as a decent contribution for the vibrant blogging community that started blogging about Manny Pacquiao and his fights.

We’re working right now in creating a few new blogs on which we are going to be blogging on starting this April, yes, April, about three months late from the promised 2010 fire kickoff.

I’m wondering what things have changed since then, and how we’re going to cope and adopt to those changes. But one thing is for sure, if we won’t try it, we’ll never know it. So, watch out for the return of Pinoy Teens Online and the outbreak of the Philippine Teens Media, on a monitor near you!

The other event that spells slightly less significance than the monthsary date of Graxxie and I would be the birthday of Alica which I’m attending today, actually write now as I write.

I was the only boy in the midst of the pool of girls that were present, okay, not all alone, another guy going by the name Gavin was also there. I heard about this fella years back when the two of us (Alica and I) still used to be talking to each other in a more pleasant and productive way.

I arrived at her house ahead of herself and her accompaniment. She was pretty much surprised that I was there, sitting on the couch anticipating the arrival of the birthday celebrant. She didn’t knew about my appearance until then, and I bet I would not have been there if it wasn’t for her grand mother who invited me over to attend her sweet sixteenth birthday.

As always, and as you may have expected it to be, the birthday was very noisy, well, what else would you expect girls to talk about but boys? And then suddenly shout out loud whenever a name of a cute guy was chimed into the discussion and whenever someone is sharing something kinda emotional? That’s what happened, and pretty much everything that happened.

There was a more odd event though prior my arrival at the birthday scene when I was almost hold-upped in the jeep on my way to Damosa Gateway, yet that’s another, I’m sure insignificant story to tell; since nothing really happened to me that time

I’ll get rest from all this blogging stuff and other online work that I’ve been doing to earn hard for a new laptop. I agreed with my father that he’ll get me an iMac 27-inch i7, but that at the expense of my laptop that was scheduled to come this Christmas, nevertheless there’s still hope that someone else might chime in and show support for a new laptop, and that would be my Ninang and Ninong, among others.

The whole drama has no relation to the failed agreement to get a new laptop this Christmas, well not really. But the words that she stoned at me were uttered during a peaceful and decent discussion on what we could do to get myself a good working laptop if not this Christmas, as early as possible for as long as I would get a model that is not only worth its price, but useful for the tasks that I’m planning to do.

With that said, I’ll mysteriously fade out of the scene and re-enter the real world for one last time this year, especially this holiday season. In which I’m looking forward to spend time with people around me in the real world and not just in front of my 13-inch display.

Who knows, maybe I’ll rediscover the will and interest to blog again within the next couple of months, or weeks. But I can assure, not days. I also have a little pride in me that got really hacked small by the few painful words she left me.

If it’s not the case that I get back in the mood of blogging within the soon future. I would like to thank everyone beforehand. Everyone who is involved in building up Pinoy Teens Online. Everyone who has contributed to it, all the people who helped me, encouraged me and taught me things in their own unique way.

I’d most especially like to thank the present writing team of Pinoy Teens Online who have been there for me and the website at troublesome times, especially these past few weeks. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Goodbye blogging, goodbye Pinoy Teens Online. You will always be a part of me, like the 1,100,000 other visitors that we’ve touched together.

All of the bloggers had their own things to do, and were busy in their own unique way, as unique as I was busy shooting each of them. Haha.

I’m heading for bed now and look forward to tomorrows Mindanao Bloggers Summit 3 here in Cagayan de Oro City!

Not only because of the staff that I’ve linked to a bit throughout our day in and day out stay, but also because of their servings that are outstanding in contrast to the other McDonald stations here in Davao City, but that’s not what this post is all about.

I decided to have my break fast away from home for this Sunday to start something different, something new, just like I have mentioned earlier by starting something, which is starting over again and doing things that I used to do before; this doesn’t counts to one of them.

I just want to relax a bit down here and I am still waiting for my girl friend to arrive here. I feel much better right now and a bit more complete after accomplishing the first part of the start of starting over again with my life and the way I tackle my blogs as well. What are you up to this morning?

I can’t say that I have become a bit careless about my blogging throughout the year, even if I have neglected it at times. Something a bit far fetched has been bugging me, not recently, but already from the beginning of the year, girls.

With that, there have been three major names that played a great role in my 2009 so far. Graceanne, Daizel and Rhea.Three girls who played three different roles but provided a common outcome for me, headache. There’s been the time when I fooled some, times when I was played, moments of happiness and moments of sorrow and disappointment. Mixed emotions that I’m not really used to. Just a little mix of all of these, and I got carried away. Concentrating on the less important things in life than rather continue my flaghship blog to develop into what could have been a huge community by now.

I have maddened several people throughout the year, some were mad at me due to my behavior, others just don’t like me that much and seek irrelevant excuses to let me know how they feel and think about me. I’ve got nothing to do against it, but eventually do my best and try to change for the better, change my attitude, the way I deal with people, and so.

As part of the SEA Change Movement as a Youth Partner, I want to start over. I want to start the change with myself. I want to become the happy guy I was before I met the two girls that dealt the most impact on me this year. I miss the times when I cry hearing some emotional song, I miss the times when I remember happy moments with my friends because I’ve got barely any moment this year. I miss everything that I don’t have right now, and to be honest, I think I don’t have anything right now that I could feel satisfied with.

Well, this should be something new, don’t you think?

I hope that all of you will erase the bad experiences that you had with me, and give me the chance to show that I’m better than your analysis. I’ll be starting over, right here, right now.

First and foremost, I noted that my hosting bills are way overdue, but thanks to my very kind host, they’ve disabled automatic suspension until the 20th of October, which is still, way off the date I’ll claim my Adsense Payout which is at the rear end of this month.

My girlfriend, eventually borrowed a bit money from a blogger friend I know good for the good cause of letting me watch one of my local crushes’ concert at the Holy Cross of Davao; and it looks like I need to aid her in paying the debt away. I also need to pay something of my own doings, if you can still recall my journey to Legaspi midway 2009.

I haven’t been able to register to the Mindanao Bloggers Summit 2009 yet, I’ve got nothing to pay the registration fee for two people, and my mother won’t let me borrow two thousand pesos for a reason that I don’t know. And I’m too ashamed of the few people I’ve been asking to help me out with this problem that I’ve calculated that I’d only have less than ten thousand pesos left from my upcoming Adsense Payout which is not enough to help me pay my tuition fee.

With that said, once again, it is pretty much unlikely that I can make it to the Mindanao Bloggers Summit in Cagayan de Oro this month Which means, it’s the second successive Major Blogging Event that I have missed this year, while the latter one was the WordCamp in AIM, Makati.

I look less than a blogger now, and the reputable author of Pinoy Teens has slowly vanished. I reached the peak of my career already with the Pacquiao post last May, but the energy and confidence is slowly fading…